hi
i m back , probably ..
but i dunno ,
till when shall i be stuck with you..
well dont be surprised, just had an "epiphany": that i ve lived my life like an idiot till now ... every thing was fake,
including the feelings developed inside me, inspirations occurred to me, habits developed in me...
well, i dunno even if im doin this rite now , means something or not , i just kinda am flowing with it..
i am a guy probably 5'8" 20 years old, average looking, stout guy living in bhopal,
persuing the bachelors course in architecture.
well every thing sounds normal,
except that
it is'nt
my life , just happened .. i dint even realise how and when..
i m a guy with a 2 year old's intellect ,..
then do i deserve to be living the life i have no idea of ?
i have a cute little girlfriend who cares for me like the most precious and auspicious part of her life ,
despite knowing that i ve screwed up
my past 5 relationships...
i m not even sure if the figures are correct ..
but i m pretty sure i wasnt always like this ..
Till my class 7th i was a regular guy who had a perception of that if i do something care fully eventually i become good at it. And i did, I tried may things like art , music martial arts etc.. but found every other thing interesting, i never clinged on to a particular thing .. obviously. It didnt affect me that much .. but yes, my dad was a bit dissapointed, the same expression i couldnt forget when he used to arrive home , i was always in the middle of having fun. Call it whatever you wish to , may be it was my bad luck or something, but i always used to feel i was just so deprived of precious droplets of felix felicis, or may be i was too naive to recognise it ..
And he had every right to be upset,why wouldnt he , i would have been dissapointed too if i was at his place , with my son changing his ambitionn every other day.. but for what i know now , he didnt deserve this.
my brothers ripped at me .. all the time for this.. ah my brothers are definitely an intricate part of my story,
although i m not even sure if intricate is the correct word to use for this..
yes indeed , 17 years of mockery and abuse , they finally left for their study , and i was at peace.
unlike the peace other people of my age were discovering. people from my past now were set ahead for becoming well in future , and i dint even had a slightest hint about it like every tym i screwed big time.
there are a series of events which embossed the flavour in my thalmus. This is just a beginning , obviously there is a lot more to hear ..., but are you upto it?
"they say its all a decietful felony
but i steal all the colors that rainbows gather me
i still believe in the fairytales thy used to say.".
